♥_love and love and happy afternoons_♥

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 18:30:17 GMT

everything is going great with me and brian...

otherwise i'm freaking out.. i have bills to pay and no money to pay them.. i'm not really doing good in the fucking one class i'm taking right now.. my mom keeps threating me and my dad keeps telling me to just move back home. i'm breaking down very slowly and i'm scared i can't take it anymore by myself.. I NEED HELP! i'm falling apart

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 18:37:16 GMT

alright so for people who can't read..

- Work can't give me off except the 4th and 5th.. i'm not coming home for like 4 freaking hours and then driving back.. that would be POINTLESS..

- The wedding i'm going to is in September.. that would be the next time i can take off work.. after that its November for thanksgiving and i'm staying down here for christmas..
got it???

any other questions??? tho i don't have to justify myself to anyone
if you want to see then how about you come down here???

you have to take the bad in with the good..

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 22:57:25 GMT

- Can't come home when i wanted to because work can't give me off.
- My mom might have colon cancer.. and i'm not excited..

+ i get to go to Spokane, Washington in September as well as Seattle and all those fun places around there for a wedding. finally get to go somewhere not on the east coast.
+ MY PARENTS ARE COMING TO VISIT ME!! <33
+ I'm almost done unpacking my apartment.. i think i have two more boxes left.
- too busy to really do much.
+ making lots of money.
+ Schools almost over. i have one exam tomorrow and i'm done with this semester

me and brian are still going strong. our 1 year is coming up and actually we'll be in Washington for it. I'm soo excited. He really is my best friend right now. i talk to him about anything and everything.

i guess the next time i'll be home will be in November.. i can't really come up there until then because of school and work. and i need money like i need oxygen. i have five different bills i have to pay each month. and then my mom wants me to take my cat. which i really cant right now. i have two major roads right by my apartment and people down here don't stop for anything. and i don't have the money for it. I honestly love living on my own. But i HATE bills. Though me and Brian might be moving. To where i don't know. Which is fine by me because i kinda am getting bored of Gainesville. But i'm not going to be moving home anytime soon (even though my dad keeps asking me when i will be moving back in.) I love my freedom. and i love being away from everything. i don't have drama i dont have anything to worry about except bills. i'm in love with the greatest guy i've ever met and we plan on spending the rest of our lives together. Right now i couldn't be happier. I'm stressing a little but thats normal. School is stressing. but i'm so excited to go to Washington and meet brian's friends. and i'll stop rambling.

++withlove++

its everything i want right now..

Thu, 25 May 2006 03:02:53 GMT

i want to starve myself until i'm back to 110..
i want to dye my hair so that its super light brown..
i want to shake this stupid depression state of mind i've been having lately..
i want to not go to bed feeling like i'm losing touch with everyone..
i want to take a REAL vacation and stay in a hotel and go to the beach whenever because its only a walk away..
i want to trust new people without second guessing it..
i want a million dollars so i won't have to live pay check to pay check.. worrying about if i'm going to have enough money for groceries.
i want people to come visit me.. and to enjoy themselves in the process.
i want everything in my life to be on track so i won't have to worry anymore..
i want to feel loved by the people that i love..
i want to feel like i just had the best time of my life.. and hold on to that memory until the next one comes..
i want this to be the end of my love life.. he makes me soo incredibly happy..

STRESS KILLS!!!..
not having a free second to just relax puts people in a depression state of mind..
only having one person to trust is driving me crazy..
only having one person to hang out with sucks when they're busy..
working and going to class everyday takes its toll on ones body..

this is me just being critical on myself. things i want to change and am in the process of changing.. i don't need or want an opinion from anyone. but if you feel you need to then leave a comment

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 03:10:06 GMT

so right now i've been living with a kidney infection and its not fun.. i worked last week on thursday and friday and made some lovely money.. this week i worked on wednesday and well my legs felt like they were going to collapse on me but i made it through and made 82 bucks. tomorrow i'm working a pool party and then going to this bar-b-que at brians' parent's house cause his grandparents are in town so its going to be like all his family in the area at the house.. should be interesting but his family is really cool and they all make me feel welcomed. right now i think i'm going to take a shower and then go to bed i'm a little sleepy. damn that medicine oh well its life.

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 23:22:09 GMT

so easter is still a month away i know but i figured i'd let you guys know i'm coming home for it

april 14-19.. maybe.. i don't know i have to talk to brian about it.. and see how long i can take off at target

just playing catch-up

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 01:36:26 GMT

Work:
so the bar got new owners.. they're pretty cool i guess.. they're
kinda young and they don't seem to know what they are doing we dont
dance on the bar anymore which is alittle upsetting but at the same
time its a nice change i got a second job working at Target i make
6.50 an hour plus i get discounts and a pay increase as i go so this
will be good extra money in my bank account so i can go on trips and
stuff with the boyfriend or go shopping..

love life:
incredible. to me he is the picture of perfection. i swear sometimes
he has A.D.H.D. but its funny we act completely stupid when needed
which is all the time. but we can talk about everything. he makes me
feel like i'm home [though i still miss it]. 6 months in March and it
feels like 6 years.

my life:
full. going to be working everyday. but at the same time i hang out with
friends. party. go bar hopping. some cattiness but that gets solved quick
and the party continues.

Friends:
home: i miss them.. i can't wait to see them. hopefully sometimes soon.
I'M COMING HOME FOR EASTER.. and bringing Brian with me!
here: krystina is doing good.. she got a new boyfriend; new friend kelly
is funny as crap ex-cheerleader as well so we talk about that. and shes
a party girl so me her krystina and everyone go out and dance.

at the moment i'm sick.. which sucks but i'm taking medicine trying to get better

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 18:09:05 GMT

since lauren gave me the nudge..

alright so..
+ moved into my apartment and everything
- in the process of painting my room
+ me and brian are fantastic, like really good, (he claims we're going to get married)
- krystina had some boy drama but its all better now
- i had drama at work cause they were bumping me back to a dancer everytime a bartender comes to try-out which is shitty
+ its getting warmer down here which means tank tops and flip flops
+ my parents came to visit and bought me a bed (so comfortable ;})
- i'm breaking out which blows
+ warm weather = motorcycle ride! =)
+ warm weather also means friends come to visit!

NEW APARTMENT!

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 17:28:07 GMT

so yesterday me krystina and brian went to look at apartments..
alot of the places we went to were closed but we kept driving around
i was getting so tired.. but we went to look at a couple more
well the last one we looked at was perfect two bedrooms the same size
(reduces fighting cause one room is bigger then the other get it?)
open kitchen, washer & dryer in apartment, free tanning bed, free cable hookup
ceiling fans, walkin closets, nice size living room.. 460 a month so i'll still
have money to get groceries and stuff. i'm so excited my own place (well
with roommate but thats cool cause she doesn't annoy me)
i move in on sunday January 8th at noon =)

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 17:13:15 GMT

so..

came home for christmas. which was definitely better then my thansgiving break.
got everything i wanted for christmas + something extra from my mom
-got a new laptop from my parents(aka from my dad), its really nice and kind of expensive but its perfect for when i start school and doing all that stuff
-got a portable dvd player from grace for my 12 hour trips to and from florida
-got plane tickets from anna so i wouldn't have to drive
-got a game cube from claiborne for my new apartment
-got pj's from my grandma(which i'll never wear)
-got perfume and socks from my aunt and her new husband
-got a star named after me by brian(cause i'm massively obsessed with the stars)
........+$50 gift card to victorias secret that i still have yet to use
-got the rollercoaster tycoon game plus water park expansion pack(that i can play for 5 hours a day and not care)
-got a coach purse from my mom + matching wallet

i got..
-my mom these little things that she likes
-to look for my dads(maybe i'll give him like a couple hundred bucks for helping me out)
-to get anna something which will be kinda hard cause she has everything
-grace the burberry wallet she wanted
-to get claibornes still
-brian the track jacket he wanted plus the coach wallet he wanted for his birthday (my mom bought him a jcrew peacoat to replace the one that got stolen while he was visiting his friends on the air force base in washington state)

hung out with my Ps4L girls (minus chelsea cause she was sick, which made me sad but added nicole which was cool)
watched the 40 year old virgin and had jagger bombs and baileys and pizza. man i missed them and i'm glad this break was better then the last. hopefully they'll come down for spring break!! *hint hint* =)

hung out with my mom while i was there just talking about how great everything is going down here, although i have to move out of where i'm at by tomorrow or sunday so i'm moving into brian's apartment until me and krytina get ours which will be sometimes next week or the week after i'm excited to get my own place.. though i'll have a roommate thats fine cause there will be two rooms. plus krystina is just as goofy as i am so things will be good as long as we both stay financially stable.

not sure if i'm starting school on january 20th or not cause i haven't heard anything from the school about scheduling or anything which isn't really that fun cause i want to start school

put my car in the shop cause my fans weren't kicking on and my car was over heating.. which sucks cause i don't have a car.. and i need one to get to and from work and everything

worked last night which was kind of boring cause not that many people are in town cause people graduated and the new students haven't gotten in yet.. so it was kind of a slow night

and i'm out..late

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 02:26:44 GMT

brian likes to sleep with his hand on his package

half of krystina.. brian.. and john paul hanging out on the job

the girl with her back to the camera and ass cheeks hanging out is Sara from the Real Worl Phil.

D.J. Rhu .. his last night was halloween =( he cried before we took this picture

him dressed as our boss for halloween =)

alana's a dragon! .. in which i can finally do that =)

krystina said she was gunna wake me up one day like that [thats my soon to be roomie]

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 04:34:02 GMT

whoopie i'm home for a vacation and to see my friends and family.. and yet right now i'm ready to hop back in my car and head back to florida.. some homecoming.. all i want to do is cry.. straight off the bat i get made fun of by anna and grace.. get a hug from my mom and dad.. my cat ran away from me.. goretex growled at me.. met my moms new puppy.. adoreable.. my brother gave me a hug when i got out of my car.. its SOOOO cold here.. i want the warmth.. yesterday i was wearing a skirt and flip flops to day i'm wearing a sweatshirt.. this sucks ass.. i want to be with brian and i want to be working.. i have so much fun at work.. i could be making money right now instead of sitting my ass in my dad's computer chair and typing this..

fucking A ..

well i'm home for 10 days...
tomorrow - doctor's appointment at 9:30am, after that i'm going to verizon and getting a new phone, then harry potter at 8 <3 =)
saturday - ??..i have no idea
sunday - thinking about going to see NVA practice but not sure..
monday - hair appointment at 1:30pm should be fun
tuesday - doctor's appointment at 10:30am
wednesday - ??..
thursday - I GET TO GET FAT!!! Turkey Day =)
friday - beats me..
saturday - i'm praying so hard brian can get that day off of work and he can come up here
sunday - maybe just hanging out or heading back to florida..

let me know if you want to do something on any of those days

don't be shy girl go bananza shake your body like a belly dancer

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 07:49:30 GMT

man life is soooo good.. i never wanna leave here..

i'm finally living life without drama cause down here people don't give a shit..

if you wanna get away from the dramam of whatever for a little bit feel free to visit me in gainesville i'll show you the town and all the cute boys i know in it.. most of them work with me =)

missing home though and all the people that are there best friends my parents MD loves my kitty[though i might get a new one down here i'm excited..] my brother and siter..

leave one if you feel like it.. if not ttyl

read it if you want..

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 09:12:12 GMT

alright starting the week off at wednesday cause monday and tuesday were boring..

wednesday - woke up late like 4:30pm got up took a shower laid around for like an hour and a half before actually getting dressed got everything together for after dance practice called krystina to remind her to bring clothes so we could out to Rue Bar after practice get to dance practice learn like 3 more dances go upstairs to our dressing room and do hair and make up change and head out with anna roxy and krystina get to rue bar at like 9:30pm nobody there so we went to jewels met up with aj[so hott] left there and went back to rue bar at 10:30pm saw my buddy Jeremy[old security guard worked at the library quit and went to rue bar] talked to him for a little bit.. met back up with anna krystina roxy aj his two friends justin[security guard] and acouple other people.. we all got completely wasted that night.. yea..

thursday - finally ended up falling asleep at like 10am woke up at around 5pm with a killer headache took aloooooong shower.. went to work at 9pm.. walked around and passed out flyers for like 3 hours came back to the bar and danced the rest of the night.. went home and slept..

friday - woke up at like 2:30pm.. talked to my mom for a little bit about the week and everything.. went shopping at 5 to get my outfit i needed to work in the club room finally found my outfit at 8 yea i had to wear all black.. needed pants and a top .. umm.. got to work at 10 when i needed to be there at 9:30.. worked the club bar until 12:30.. ran to the dressing room and changed into my skirt and library shirt danced for an hour and 15 minutes came home and slept

saturday - woke up at 3pm.. ate some brunch watched a movie had anna call me at 5 to tell me i had to get to work at 6:15.. yea got there at 6:30 .. nobody came until like 8:30.. had dinner at 9 other bartenders started showing up at 9:30-10 danced and was the cocktail waitress for VIP tonight.. yea that was interesting.. closed out cleaned bottles the usual.. got home at 3am.. and now i cant sleep and i have to bring sharon to the greyhound station in two hours..

i'm tired.. what a week..
comment if you must

first you plant the seed and then you fuck the plant

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 00:57:46 GMT

that was the first night i worked there.. my hair is so poofy from the humidity outside and all the dancing
i think i've lost like 6 lbs. just from dancing on the bar.. and i'm eatting healthy food cause anna wont
let me eat anything else so i'm continuing to lose weight but its okay cause i'm gaining muscle in the process

now I aint sayin she a gold digger but she aint messin wit no broke niggas

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 04:41:09 GMT

so today i didn't have to work.. definitely woke up at like idk 3:30ish in the pm.. was incredible to sleep in that late normally i'd have to wake up at 12:30-1 so i can get everything done before work..

normal work day..
-get home around 3:30am
-sleep in until 12:30-1 if i'm lucky until 2
-shower
-hit up the mall, clean my room or do laundry
-cut up shirt for work..
-get to work at 5:30 do make-up
-get off work at 2:30-2:45am
-unwind for like 15-30 minutes
-get home at 3:30 [and the cycle continues]

my job is so worth it tho.. not for the money but just the fact that i get to meet a crap load of new people every night.. and the people i work with are awesome as shit. kinda sucks that one of the security guards left and won't be back until like november.. he was my buddy we did the air guitar when i worked Club Insomnia dang oh well i got his number before he left last night we're gunna hang out when i'm up in VA cause hes there like 30 minutes south of richmond.. i'm starting to rethink the december move back and switching it to a june move back.. i honestly dont want to leave gainesville.. its so much fun down here and living with my sister isn't bad at all i'm enjoying this experience and i will prolong it as much as possible.. sorry guys.. JUST COME VISIT ME.. and if not then damn i'll stay down here longer cause being up there wont be worth it

stolen from laur <333..

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 22:38:34 GMT

name : margo
age : 18
relationship status : hmm.. wish i knew..
Today : 9.4.05
location : my sisters laptop in my room..

FEATURES
nationality :
height : 5`4 1/2
hair color : about to dye it dark brown and blonde..
eye color : green
shoe size : 6 1/2 sometimes a 7
piercings : ears[tragus, rook, and three lobe piercings in my left and then 5 piercings and two cartilidge in my right
1st love: ramsey... =\
1st grade crush : damn i can picture him but i cant remember his name
2nd grade crush : didn't have one
3rd grade crush : cj
4th grade crush : cj
5th grade crush : cj and randy
6th grade crush : honey i had alot of them in 6th grade
7th grade crush : umm...
8th grade crush : matt komrowski
9th grade crush : hmm... i don't even remember having one..
10th grade crush : ramsey and matt komrowski
11th grade crush : dustin
12th grade crush : brent and dustin

Have You Ever...
fell in love : yes
kissed someone : oh you betcha
cried for someone : yes
lied : to save my ass from my mom
stole anything : i had that rebellion stage
drove a car : mhm
laughed so hard you had to pee : actually yea
yelled at someone for something : i dont really yell i get frustrated
stayed up all night : acouple of times
got sick : like its my job!
gave a lap dance : haha yea a couple

DO YOU
smoke : used to and kinda still do.. its a nice calming thing after work trust me
drink : sometimes.. i make them myself so whenever the alcohol is in reach..
laugh a lot : i love to laugh you burn calories..
drive : yes.. 2003 VW GTI 1.8T
get tans : yea but they dont last long
talk on the phone : hmm.. to my mom as of right now..
cook : i make some mean mashed otatoes and maccaroni and cheese
fall in love easily : depends if i really feel a connection
listen to yourself or your friends : i havent talked to my friends in a little bit but i try to give good advice
singing and dance : well dancing and bartending is my job so i dance 4 days out of the week for like 8 hours..

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT
love : is amazing when you find the right person
long distance relationships : if your willing to do the whole conversation no physical contact then more power to you
teenager smoking : do what you want
sneaking out : i guess when your younger then its more thrilling..
car accidents : scarey stuff..
mistakes : made lots
playas : hahahaa yea about that.. they dont exist
online dating : i'd do it
school : eventually starting college whenever i feel like it..
margaritas : had an amazing one when i got to florida mmm<3
tampons : they suck as much as the reason you need them
boys/girls : girls are weird and sometimes annoying. boys are fun to hang out with and they dont lie..
tattoos : I WANT MINE WHEN I GET PAID.. i get a discount on them and piercings but i dont want anymore piercings MY TATTS ARE WHAT I WANT! me and my sister are gunna get matching ones..

CHOOSE
sun or rain : depends on my mood
sunset or sunrise : sunrise =)
puppies or kittens : thats a toughie but i think kitties
soda or ice cream : hmmmmmm... water and ben and jerrys phish food
vanilla or chocolate : vanilla cause then i can make a root beer float
tv or music : why not music television [mtv] lol both
phone or internet : well.. both
slippers or shoes : honestly i'd prefer barefoot but flipflops and my dr. martins
summer or winter : i LOVE winter for the snow and the boots.. fall for the leaf piles to jump in.. spring for the flowers and the lovely pollen that makes me sneeze.. summer for my birthday and the freedom of wearing whatever you want..

FAVORITES
food : mashed potatoes
car : my gti <33 mmmm

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 03:44:12 GMT

saturday- me and anna drove to georgia to see Ashlee Simpson.. she was amazing live it was great.. Ryan Cabrarra was there watching in the tent two rows behind me... it was funny he got up in the middle of Barefoots performance and went to the bus but everyone was watching him go even the guys in the band were looking at him..

sunday- went shopping in orlando..

monday- went to back to orlando with anna and her fiance' and my boss Frank [he owns the house i'm staying in] and went to pleasure island and went to all the night clubs there and danced until like 2am stayed at a hotel

tuesday/today- woke up at 11[check out time] got an extra hour for the room.. went to ihop then me and anna stayed down in orlando and went shopping again.. got matching belly button rings and we're thinking about matching tattoos.. should be fun.. then well i've been laying around ever since..

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 22:13:42 GMT

i think you could only talk to a best friend through smiley faces and on the phone at the same time!!

x0x0 laur 0x0x: >:o
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-!
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-)
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :'(
x0x0 laur 0x0x: 8-)
a fatal secret: :-D
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-[
a fatal secret: O:-)
a fatal secret: =-O
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-X
a fatal secret: :-P
a fatal secret: ======D:-P
x0x0 laur 0x0x: loll no balls
x0x0 laur 0x0x: ;-)
a fatal secret: :-[
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a fatal secret: :-)
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-$
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-\
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-D
a fatal secret: :'(:-(:-\

the stages of margo withdrawl
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a fatal secret: :-[
x0x0 laur 0x0x: >:o
x0x0 laur 0x0x: O:-)
a fatal secret: :-*
x0x0 laur 0x0x: =-O
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-D:'(
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x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-*:-*
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x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-\
x0x0 laur 0x0x: O:-)
x0x0 laur 0x0x: 8-)
x0x0 laur 0x0x: =-Openis sucker.
a fatal secret: :-):-\
a fatal secret: :-P
a fatal secret: :-D
a fatal secret: :-)
a fatal secret: :-D
a fatal secret: :-*
a fatal secret: :-D
a fatal secret: :-[:-\
a fatal secret: O:-)
a fatal secret: :-D:-D
a fatal secret: :-*:-*
x0x0 laur 0x0x: 8-):-* :-\
x0x0 laur 0x0x: >:o
a fatal secret: :-D:-D
a fatal secret: =-O
a fatal secret: :-)
x0x0 laur 0x0x: >:o
a fatal secret: >:o
x0x0 laur 0x0x: ;-)
a fatal secret: >:o
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-)
x0x0 laur 0x0x: O:-)
x0x0 laur 0x0x: =-O
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-\
x0x0 laur 0x0x: >:o
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-)
a fatal secret: 8-)
a fatal secret: :-*
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-*
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-(
x0x0 laur 0x0x: O:-)
x0x0 laur 0x0x: >:o
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-*:-X
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :'(
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :'(
x0x0 laur 0x0x: :-\
x0x0 laur 0x0x: >:o

haha we talked on the phone for almost 2 hours dang i miss you bff <33

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:08:49 GMT

first night of work and it was a blast.. so many hott guys there and i was stuck dancing all night and selling shooters.. all the girls that work there are kickass.. i never realized how ADD my sister is or how hyper.. but its okay she makes it fun i'm soo sore m back hurts like i was carrying a fat girl all night or something

but i'm out like a skinny girl in a pie eatting contest <3

strangers waiting up and down the boulevard

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 01:38:56 GMT

so yesterday i left my house at 8am stopped by laurs and then left for florida got here at like 7pm
and somehow got sick from the drive.. idk how it happened but well i have like the flu or something
i start work on thursday night so i hope i'm better by then.. i miss everyone already <33 thanksgiving
better come fast and then last for awhile.. i've been sleeping all day pretty much cause i've been drugged
up and what not.. i'm about to go to urgent care tomorrow and see if i can get some meds.. i've been taking
tylenol flu.. saturday i'm going see Ashlee Simpson in concert at this kings dominion kinda park.. and then
sunday me and anna might go to the red carpet for the VMAs hahaa should be exciting!! idk we'll see.. UF is
a really beautiful college and theres all kinds of places to visit or see around it.. i'm gunna go shopping
tomorrow for some jeans.. after i unpack everything

I love you even though it isn't fair

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 15:12:53 GMT

so i had to say goodbye to him on tuesday.. yea that went well.. NOT i started crying cause i really dont know when i'm going to get to see him again.. well today but thats for like two seconds to give him his shirts that he left in my car when i was up there.. i could honestly say i was falling for that kid.. he knew everything about me EVERYTHING even the little things like how i get when i'm nervous or what to say that can really piss me off and then what to say after you say crap that pisses me off.. falling asleep in his arms those two nights has made it difficult for me to fall asleep on my own.. he was my best guy friend and i can't believe our timing had never been right NEVER i liked him he had a girlfriend he liked me i had a boyfriend.. and then i got scared when we actually did like eachother.. i didn't want to leave and have to break up that would've been horrible..

i think i'm just gunna move back up here after christmas.. i know i won't be able to stay down there that long without seeing him.. i'll go insane.. that and i need my friends i do i honestly do i need them badly i'm going to miss them a crap load

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 01:02:05 GMT

the crazy thing is.. as the day gets rapidly closer the more nervous i'm getting.. i know i'm gunna miss out on so much stuff when i'm gone.. the first time i'm coming back to visit will be thanksgiving and thats November 24th and then i come back a month later for christmas.. having people come to visit me for new years <3 but still the three months between the move down and when i come back i'm gunna miss alot.. and then the next month i'll miss more.. i hope to keep in touch with every single one of my ps4L loves and my Maryland lovers.. damn.. i know the day i have to say goodbye is going to be HORRIBLE i already bought a pack of tissues.. so please let me know if you want to hang out before the 22nd

the other day i was talking to lauren.. and we've come to the comclusion that we've been there for eachother for the past 6 years.. the crazy thing is is that me and her have done EVERYTHING together.. i was there when she had her first kiss and she was there when we both almost got arrested for trespassing at a park.. my first accident.. her first accident.. the first time i was allowed to drive by myself.. the first time she could..

laur: you know your my bestestestest friend ever i know the day i leave is going to affect you the most you mean alot to me and i'm going to be expecting a phonecall if not everyday then like once a week just to let me know how everything is going and any new boys you meet and stuff <3 im going to misss you like a fat kid misses cake when hes on a diet or like a dog misses his balls after he keeps them chopped off and a pretty dog walks by him.. but seriously we've become extremely close over the years i don't know what i would've done if i hadn't of said hi to you on the first day of 6th grade.. so many memories and so much drama but we're still friends and we're going to be until the day we die.. which wont be for like 50-60 more years but its okay cause after i finish school in florida we'll get an apartment or something I LOVE YOU LOTS SISTER <33

Margo

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 03:14:14 GMT

the sad thing is..

is that i'm SOOO excited to move
but even more upset about it..

even if you got down on your knees you couldn't make me stay

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 04:39:10 GMT

so lauren inspired me to write this..

my name is margo. i'm 18. still haven't graduated from high school. still living at home with my parents until august 22nd. i love writing poetry and listening to music and just having a good time. i still dont know what i'm gunna do when i "grow up". fuck it kids i am ADD i do sit there one minute paying attention and if a fly flys right in front of my eyes I WILL FOLLOW IT!

FRIENDS: got a nice handful of the best and i love them dearly.. lets see i've known jess since well since her brother dated my sister lol we went to elementary middle and high school together and shes always lived just a short drive away. we never REALLY hung out until sophmore year and we couldn't be seperated. lets see i met laur on the first day of school cause my mom told me to make a new friend so well i said hi to laur and she rolled her eyes at me! its only cause i moved david farmers seat and you cant blame me cause he used to eat glue! but we became istant best friends.. from talking on the phone for like 6 hours at a time and spending the night at each others houses and going to the mall and stuff to getting into stupid fights and being at eachothers throats but always remained the best of friends. chelsea i met freshmen year but i didn't really get to know her until me her and laur hung out.. shes a crazy little kid but i love her we haven't really been that close lately but its okay i miss her bunches.. we've had our bit of drama together but well i did have part in causing it.. shes an extremely hard working INDIVIDUAL and i respect her for everything she does... tay i met through chelsea sophmore year and me and her didn't really get along that well AT FIRST but we've become the bestest of friends and i love her TONS.. kim well mrs. kimberly i met through tay laur and chelsea and just became instant friends.. me and her have so much in common and well we have some damn good talks though some of them were while we were under the influence but still they helped alot .. my high school "career" wouldn't have been the same without those five individuals and yet i wouldn't be the same without them either through the boyfriends and the fights i know i can always count on them to be there when i'm in a jam<3

ROMANCE: i've had my share of heartbreak and of bad experiences. while in high school i only had 4 relationships.. two of them just ended because well one i wasn't up to his standard of a relationship plus i was only 15 at the time [it lasted four months].. the other one i hardly go to see him so we broke up but still remained friends the only relationship i ever had that did so [last 2 1/2 months].. the other two ended badly one from maryland who thought he could play me with his ex girlfriend who was a fucking bitch they deserve eachother[2 months].. the other well it just went to shit after i went to florida for a competition.. left and came back and EVERYTHING was different like idk i cant explain it its just felt like well shit.. i still remember the day we split because it was the same day i found out about Tay[rip my big brother] <3 but i survived the break up and idc what anyone says i was the most fucking mature person about it[lasted 7 months]. so blow me. being in relationships is hard i dont reall get why we have them.. you get to know a person in three months and then after those three months its like you have to get to know them all over again.. people really do put on an act for you just so you'll date them and then once they feel comfortable they change.. shit i'll be my hyper energetic crazy talkative self when you meet me and if you dont tell me to chill or something i'll still be that way the day we break up. you dont like it then hey dont sit there and talk to me its cool i'm not scared if i only have 3 friends when i'm older cause damn i'll know that those people are the only ones who care.

FAMILY: i'm the last of four kids.. yes i am the baby but i'm more mature then my brother and my sister.. family is extremely important to me and they come first ALWAYS. the reason i'm here is because of my parents and i owe them my life and i would give mine to save theirs anyday. growing up as the youngest was pretty difficult because i was always being put to the standards of my sisters and my brother. if i didn't reach those standards it was like there was something wrong with me. i didn't really talk to my dad because he was well a slight bit abusive when i was little. me and him didn't really talk like talk talk until maybe freshmen year.. but on the other hand my mom is my number one best friend. i mean i tell her EVERYTHING.. i told her when i first had a sex i told her when i thought i was pregnant.. long story not going into it.. i told her when i started smoking.. EVERYTHING.. i dont hide anything from my mom. my sister anna well she was like my second mom.. whenever i needed help with something and my mom couldn't do it i went to anna big sisters are the greatest especially when you get to be around the same size and you can share clothes. Grace well me and her have our moments where i just cant stand her but yet shes always there to talk to me about boys and love and heartbreak and all that stuff.. Claiborne damn that kid is a rebel without a cause.. and i'll never forget that night we got a phonecall from him and he was telling my mom he loved her and that he was bleeding and we was laying in the grass[this hurts so bad i'm crying] i ALMOST lost my brother that day and it terrifies me that if he wasn't wearing glasses we would've died. if you haven't heard that story well then that sucks cause i'm not telling it here. hes there for me when i need him always offering to beat up anyone who breaks my heart or whoever rubs me the wrong way .. but you cant help but love him. [thats a day that is forever burned into my memory; i can tell you EXACTLY what everyone was wearing]

FUTURE: honestly i want to be a song writer or to study the stars or even be an evnironmental scientist.. if none of those happen then i do have a certification as being a bartender. i'm not sure what i want to do.. my dad thinks i should go to an art school.. or be an actress.. it sounds cool but the actresses and actors who are acting now have been doing it since they were like 9.. who knows but i still want to write .. maybe i'll become a journalist.. or something of that nature.. i do want to get married someday and have two kids hopefully a boy and a girl but i'll take what i get.. and no i don't want to marry rich and no i dont want to marry someone famous.. if anything i'm gunna marry a southerner i know i am i love the southern gentlemen type cant get enough.

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